You are the first at helping, first at being there, first at changing and saving lives - but often last in getting the chance to do your own healing. We know that depression, anxiety, PTSD, and suicidality rates among first responders, Law Enforcement & veterans are constantly on the rise - at alarming rates. Suicide among members of law enforcement is not an easy topic to approach. It is sad and painful on many levels. It is challenging to research and, therefore, difficult to understand. Many people find it hard even to talk about the subject. Additionally, the barriers to treatment seem to also grow. I have spent 2 years working as a mental health clinician at Rikers Island.